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It was the most terrible experience I’ve ever had in my twenty seven years of existence in the world travelling from my home Balut Island going to General Santos City. I thought I could not see the wonderful  world that time. The dreadful feeling while on the vessel that time made me realized how difficult it is to travel. It was like you are facing death every moment you step on the vessel. You will always have the fear what life awaits as you cross the vast ocean of Balut Island and  Sarangani. The ferocious growl of the wind, the sharp and edgy drops of the rain coordinated with giant waves made my trip fearful.                           November 7, 2013 6:45 AM I woke up late in the morning feeling in pain of throat and some parts of my body due to stress of visiting a house of one of the students at night of November 6,  as part of our responsibility as teacher that you really...

I DREAM, A DREAM September 21,2013 3:00 am I couldn't sleep  tonight, it’s been a long time since I wasn't able to write my personal blog. I've been in  a very busy life since last month. I almost collapse due to stress , now I am recuperating. I don’t even have the realization that its almost December and Christmas is coming.  How sad, because I  don’t even have time  for myself this past few days  I miss conversing my friends, I miss sharing good things about life to them especially Bryan and Rene, they are the only person outside my workplace whom I know I could talk with, but now sounds  hazy because  I lost time. Anyways these things are preparation for the future. What’s in the future by the way?  I don’t know, but I believe everything  lies in my hand so I must even if sometimes too laborious and stressful. How I wish I could pass the test, how I wish everything  granted. I won’t be going somewhere, instead I’l...

Hello everyone , I just want to share my happy moments when I was at Balut Island, a place where my wonderful childhood memories kept, I mean the place where I was born and started to dream, presenting Balut Island. Last October 2012 we had our special trip to Balut Island, then just to lessen the boredom I had some short break, I went to fishing. It was me, I was riding s small boat watching people catching fish using their fish nets. The weather  this time  was not that good. It was gloomy morning of October 2012 Balut Island can be reached through riding vessel from General Santos City. It takes (5) five  hours before you can reach this wonderful place. With regards to the people living in this place they are very hospitable. Mostly the people are native B'laans, Sangil, Marore ( Indonesians) and Cebuanos. You can open my previous blogs. (  History of Balut Island )   This picture was taken at Balut Island. I got this picture fronting  ...

There are times that I wanted to quit all my jobs and responsibilities. Sometimes i wanted to shout and scream so that i could release all my pain. There are times that  life seems miserable because of so many tasks. One thing that lessens my boredom and emptiness and that is the music.  When i heard a melody from my favorite song my soul strengthens, my weak body refreshes, my empty heart becomes full. How  revitalizing the music is. Last few days , i was swamped by too many responsibilities.I traveled two places in successive days. I almost lost my energy. The only thing that helps me to revitalize was my mp4 where I played music. I realized how difficult my life that time but still I was able to manage all the test.

It's me delivering my inspirational speech to Alberto Olarte Sr. National High School  Graduates of 2011 At last the long wait is over. Last  April 1, 2011 i was invited to speak before the graduating class of batch 2011 of Alberto Olarte Sr. National High School. At around 1:39 in the afternoon of the said date I inspired the graduating student through a inspirational message.  javascript:void(0) The moment I get inside the gym my feet  quivers and feels like I was just dreaming. After eight years now I return to my Alma Mater with all the pride. I was so thankful for the warm welcome of my former teachers and mentors. I owe them all my knowledge and skills even until now. The first teacher of AOSNHS I saw was sir Romulo Sarmiento, he extended a warm welcome to me, then Sir Wayne Caballero followed by Sir Yangga my former PEHM 4 instructor. At the right side a lot of teachers were sitting and so busy instructing the graduating class, after a few moment Sir Polica...

this view was taken in at Balut Island fronting General Santos City 

March 21, 2011 was one of the most memorable date I have this year.  We went to Balot Island with my two students Nathan and Franklin together with my sister Jesseluz. our trip was so memorable for we had experience so many things. We were having a  hiking, boating , swimming and visiting the wonderful places. I was not expecting that Jonathan would join because i thought Franklin was the only one student who will join the trip. We departed ar 12 midnight and we arrived at Balot Island at 6:00 in the morning. The trip was worth remembering.

Two weeks ago, my life was so miserable. I had  experienced a huge problem and just keep it to myself for i thought i could solve it.  I don't know why i felt so sad and seemed empty. I wanted to cry but i was afraid i might be caught by my two sisters. I've known to them as a strong brother and could not be easily surrendered when trials come. I wanted to talk to someone but then no one is available whom i could share with. i was so lonely and abandoned.  Few days later, mama came to visit us and also she had business to settle with. At first i do not want to show to her that i was in trouble. Yet, mothers could sense us if we are okay or not but then she was passive for she thought that it was just okay. Then another day, my mind was not in could frame still. I almost forgot my daily routine, office and work and office and teach and office and office that's me. However those days were not that good. Then, i couldn't take the challenge anymore I gave off, i cri...

In this wide wicked world, we are sorrounded by a lot of different types of people. As said in the book i have read  People Need People. I am a friendly type of person, i care more to those who needs me, I symphatize and extend extra care to them. I have this strong sense of personality when it comes to  treating friends. this past few days, i had been  into trouble. I almost kill my self for i thought i have no way out from the mess.  I was looking for  friends whom i could lean on. I was hesistant to call for someone because people expects a lot from me. They thought  that i am strong enough  in terms of dealing with it eventually i am  not. Di ba if the person is close to you na, you will bve able to read his mind and even his spirit, lalo na pag you have been together for almost a year. However I was wrong, i was certainly wrong. i thought i could lean on them , i thought i could share also my  pangs of life, my tribulations.  Now i...

  DO'S AND DON' TS FOR GAY DATING Being a gay is not an easy  life. You will experience a lot of problems in dealing with the community, especially  when you are not appreciated by your family. Humiliations, discrimination and other  negative treatment from the people around you.  Many people treat gays like monsters, or a sick person carrying  contagious disease. it hurts but true.  Psychologically  when  this  situations occur gay person's esteem lowers.  His confidence   lessens, his trust  to his self deteriorates.   Here's a wonderful tip which i have    taken from  the book entitled "Gay Relationship"  written by TINA TESSINA,Ph.D. A wonderful tip for this Valentine season DO'S : 1. Do listen . Do not  monopolize the conversation   You will learn  even more about  your friend, and it will be much mo re relating to you. 2.  Do focus on frie...

A Valentine Letter    Dearest Sweetheart,  I just want to say I Love You and thank you for the gift of love. My heart  is filled with joy and laughter when i met  you. you become the meaning of my life.  Every time you touch me my world shines. Every time  you hug me my worries  vanish and  full of hope and strength.  i just want to say   thank you also for all  the goodness you have in m, for the understanding. I promise that you will always be cherished when I'm  gone. You are the only one in my heart and my soul. This past few  days are seemed cloudy for us. I am sorry for not sending you messages or even calling you. I am in the  verge of confusions my dear. Remember the last time we had a date,  when i stood up and went to somewhere and I pretended that my boss called me up, it wasn't true at all. I was in a deep pain.  I am sorry  I couldn't tell you  my con...

   Queen Tuna Park in General Santos City  It has been my ten years in General Santos City  since  year 2002 when  I enrolled my college.  I used to walk  from General Santos City public market  going to pioneer avenue.  While walking with my friends  I used to invite them  for a short break  and fine some fresh place where i could breath fresh air.  I grew up in an island I am an "islander", I was born there in the province surrounded by water, that's why  no matter how busy  I am I could still manage myself to find a place in which seashore , sands and water  are visible.  I love fresh air every time it touches my delicate skin it lessens my stress, it refreshes my mind and soul and every time the water drench my  feet it feels like I am home.  One of my friends told me that there is a near place in the city where  I could  have some , I mean for unwind and t...

  ANG POBRENG ALINDAHAW  ni : Jessemar J. Wao S ayo sa buntag sa dominggo , busy nga nag andam si Tibor sa iyang  mga gamit  aron muadto sa iyang umahan. Si Kimberlat nga iyang pinalanggang kabaw  himsog ug baskog kaayo nga  misugat ngadto kaniya.  nakalimot si Tibor nga dominggo diayt kadtong adlawa maong natingala ang iyang  pinalanggang inahan nga si Tarsila. naandan naman  gud ni tarsila  nga makita ang anak nga kanunay nagasimba matag dominggo  una muadto sa kaumahan. Kunga ang pamarog ni  Tibor ang hisgutan , gwapo,  maalagaron, relihiyoso  ug kanunay  basa ang agtang tungod sa pamada nga ginabutang niya matag adlaw.  Wala makatapus  si Tibor  ug eskwela sa elementarya tungod sa dakung problema nga  iyang nahiaguman. Namatay ang iyang amahan human kini maligiran ug  dakung bato sa bungtug arun magkuha ug kamoteng kahoy aron ibaligya ipalit sa iyang uniform. Sakit a...