ON WORK
Its
almost three months of getting confuse. I don’t know what to do. I never
thought of having a decision like this. I am not a type of person who loves to
hide what I feel. I’m candid and frank. But this time. I have to change my way
of dealing anybody else. It is not because I wanted to change but because I
wanted to respect and I don’t want to hurt anybody else. So sad, for how many
years of the profession, be with the people you expect to defend you and
support you turns to a bitter ones. I never realize that such feeling would
arise where in fact I was told before that everything is fine. ….{..} People come and go as they said. Now you meet
them, laugh with them, be with them wherever they are, share with them but at
the end of the day you will leave them or they will leave you. Sad but true. I
believe this is what they called constant change. One thing that bothers me is
that, why some people whom you trusted with are aren't happy of any
achievements you may wish to have, no matter how you please them. Why not show
the real thing that happens in your mind instead of hiding what
you feel and pretending that you are OK where in fact you are not? I mean it is
not good to pretend always. Everyday I
ask my self, did I hurt anyone? And if I did how severe and severe it was? .
Everyday I always thought to myself that I have to be grateful of all the
blessings that God has endowed me, and that I have to be humble and always
respectful to any of my superiors. Everyday I thank God for having me in this
world where I am one of the blessed ones because I was able to influence people
in a little way, but sometimes its so
hard because everyone expects a lot from you, everyone sees you a strong
person. But what about my weaknesses, what about my personal life? It seems I hardly understand the situation.
ON
THE PART OF FRIENDSHIP
True friends are hard to find. Today
you may meet someone in the market, you may mingle with other people talk with
them associate with them everyday yet you couldn't find the true ones. The
truth of the matter is they are there because they need something. Sad but
true. In this wide wicked world we are surrounded by great pretenders, you
thought that you were friends today, or next five years yet you could still not
sure if he or she is loyal to you. Life is not fair. You may be excellent in
all things, you maybe good or better than the other people around you but in
terms of handling a friend you are mediocre, you are not loyal, then its
nothing. I am so much glad that I have many friends, however one thing is for
sure I only have two best friends. I find them so caring and thoughtful. They would always care for me even when I am
in the verge of trouble emotionally. Thanks for their friendship.
ON LOVE
Sometimes,
severe jealousy kills us. It is a strong emotional distraction that even the
most placid part of your self is being distorted. These past few days I was so
embarrassed. I thought I was fooled by the person I loved most. I though of a
revenge without even consulting the involve. My “someone” was so calm and did
not even respond to me negatively, not a single word. It was only a few
explanations after which few days of silence and somewhat I was bounded by fury
and madness. Then later I realize that I shouldn't that way. Thank God for
realizing my mistakes abruptly. I love the person connected to me right now. I
hope this will survive. I hope this will stay longer as I expected.
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