THE LOST ONE
THE
LOST ONE
I’m
so confuse today. I wanted to scream and shout just ease my pain. Maybe because
I was a little bit distracted with family problems and other things. I am so
tired for this past few months , I thought I couldn’t carry those loads I have
in my back. I miss those days when I’m in trouble somebody would come and say “ you
can do it friend”. I miss those days when I’m lost somebody would say “ hey
here’s the right path” now, I have nothing but myself alone in this dark cold
room. I never dream to end up my life like this. I promise. I don’t want that the turning pit of my
journey is just as simple as this, lying in the corner and watching the blank
faded wall counting the tick of the clock.
Sometimes I ask myself, am I
lost? Before I dream to be like
this, now that everything has been
granted feels like nothing but
empty again. Why can’t I feel so happy
and problem-free. Why can’t I feel Ok,
perhaps there is something missing in my life right now. I am so depressed ,
bombarded with what will my life after few years. Sounds like, I’m worried with tomorrow. I want
all things properly set and prepared. I just hope I could find some ways on how
to fix this problem. Perhaps this is
what they said, being strong doesn't mean you have to show you are strong even
if you cant handle the situation anymore, sometimes you need to show your
weaknesses. Yes I know that everything
has change. Before, when tribulations arise I’m just in the corner of my room
crying. Now, when problems arise, I used to retrospect trying to find some ways
on how to solve it, but not all the time, there are times that I’m speechless
and blank. How
sad, I wish everything is ok.
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