A MOMENT OF REFLECTION

A MOMENT OF REFLECTION

By Jessemar J.Wao 

We all experience rejections in life, sometimes there  are things that we wanted to happen right now at this very moment yet the time seems very firm ,stern and unsympathetic  and would not allow that thing to happen maybe because there has been things prepared for in the future.  Last night I was not able to sleep well, I don’t know why no matter how I close my eyes still my mind kept on roaming around and somewhat recalling back the memories that I had. It was a short moment of recollecting the past. I sat down in my bed and watching at the window. My face was reflected by the Christmas light of our neighbor from a distance. I could see the glittering and shimmering Christmas lights.

I meditated for few minutes; I have asked myself where and what I am  right now. Then I could feel the cold whisper of the wind in my skin trying to bring me to the setting the day when I had experience adversities in life. The time when I almost surrender and quit. The time when I almost terminate everything for the purpose of not experiencing the pain anymore. Tears fell in  my eyes. How terrible those days that I had.  I thought to myself , surviving  the test of time wasn’t that  easy, yet challenging. Life is good as they said, life is wonderful. Yes I agree, we all appreciate the beauty of life, but sometimes when test and tribulations comes we ignore its beauty an d trying  to escape from the test and almost end everything. I looked at my watch and it was already 2:07 in the morning still glazing the wonderful  Christmas lights. It was a miracle perhaps that I had surpassed every test that has given to me. Now, here I am trying to continue what I have started,  a responsibility that my father had left. Raising my brothers and sisters, sending them to school taking care of them emotionally, financially for it my responsibility  as a big brother. I don’t want them to experience what I had experience.  Comparatively speaking my life before when my brothers and sisters was not yet in me has big difference the time when I accepted the task. God, I believe would always be there for me.